Tears of Transformation

Today I wept
And not once
I was lost, ready to give up
And the sight of those I love blazed across my mind
It dawned on me that it was no longer about me
That I am a node of a larger network
And knowing I can’t do it,
I had no option but to really turn to the one who could.

And I think of myself as a bad Christian because I don’t find it in me to really read scripture
But_